Selamat Berpantang To Myself :)

24 days more to go...
YOU CAN DO IT, NINA!
:) :P :D

Confinement sangat-sangat menguji kesabaran...
If ada orang yang tolong jaga u, buat semua kerja rumah for u, dalam tempoh berpantang tue, I consider u LUCKY sangat! So, bolehlah u berehat puas-puas, and enjoy berpantang, orang pamper u etc.
As for me, I did all by myself!
My mom ada jugalah tolong readykan air panas untuk me mandi sometimes...
And Husband pun ada juga tolong basuh n' lipat baju bila dia free...
But to be honest, I tak ambil kesempatan nak 'dimanjakan', tak payah buat kerja all...
I uruskan baby sendiri.
Dalam keadaan sakit kesan ceaser tak baik lagi, I still bangun tengah malam menyusukan baby I.
I still jalankan tanggungjawab as wife n' anak.
I still membasuh n' mengemas.
At one point, memang 'terasa' bila diri penat sangat, but baby takde orang nak tolong jaga.
But, kasih seorang ibu itu kuat... nak nangis tak jadi, bila dukung baby,
tengok wajah baby...
SEMOGA BABY RAE JUGA SAYANG SANGAT KAT MOMMY DIA!

Aidiladha

Raya Aidiladha this year 'extra' meriah sikit since ada Baby Rae & Khaleeda!
Kak Eileen & baby keluar hospital today.
As for me & Husband, we beraya dulu di Shah Alam with my family, kemudian beraya di rumah keluarga mertua my sister di Ampang.
Yeah, me still dalam pantang and Baby Rae baru 11 days old...hehe!
(Takdelah beraya sampai lupa diri...)
Petang, baru balik PJ kejap, beraya bersama keluarga Husband, menerima kunjungan saudara mara yang nak tengok Baby Rae & Khaleeda!
And, of course diorang dapat duit raya! :P

Welcome-ing Niya Khaleeda To The World

Today, Mommy & Daddy bawa Baby Rae visit her new born cousin, Niya Khaleeda.
She is Maisara's little sister.
Kak Eileen dah selamat deliver her 2nd baby girl at Assunta Hospital.
Me & Baby Rae still dalam pantang...but confinement bored me sangat-sangat!
Anas extra care jaga us just now...
"Cannot jalan laju-laju Yang!"
"Slow...jalan macam I."

"U tak boleh makan nie..."
Lama juga nak tunggu dapat jumpa Khaleeda tadi!

2nd Date With Baby Rae

I went to the hospital (again!) today to breastfeed her...

Terubat sikit rindu bila dapat hold my baby...U, counting days, sayang?

Me too.
I can't wait to bring u home...
Baby Rae kena cepat baik, ya sayang?*Sob Sob Sob*
I want my baby in my arms right now... :(

I Can Have My Baby In My Arms Finally...

Today me sangat happy. Tak sabar-sabar bangun tidur because me nak minta jumpa baby me. I want to see her so badly, but yesterday doctor tak kasi because me baru recover, baru keluar ICU semua kan, and baby punya head pun belum baik sangat lagi. Poor baby, kepala her luka sikit ada kesan because of the suction. I'm so sorry baby. Mummy was crap at pushing! Mummy hilang energy all, sedangkan Mummy nak sangat deliver Baby Rae secara normal... :( I rasa macam bad mother, sebab tak berjaya deliver my baby secara normal... I siap menangis pandang my husband...my mom and my MIL nasib baik sangat-sangat memahami... when I requested nak ceaser, diorang sokong I, because dari 6.30am my waterbag dah pecah, risau baby lemas nanti... I puji doctor di DEMC semua... diorang tak ambil kesempatan...bila I macam give-up dah tak nak cuba push baby dah tak nak lahirkan baby secara normal, diorang tetap cuba pujuk I supaya try...but...like I said, I dah cannot push dah depends on gas jer...I penat sangat sampai cannot bercakap langsung! At 9am, I masuk OT...me half sedar, pun I dah macam kat alam lain dah...I was too tired...masa diorang tunjuk Baby Rae to me pun, I takde reaction pape... Rupa-rupanya I ade complication...doctor said, I ada dua uterus, and that's so abnormal... diorang discover masa operation tue. I lost a lot of blood... and I terpaksa dimasukkan ke ICU sebab I terlalu lemah and diorang kena masukkan 2 pints of blood type O(+ve) to ganti balik my blood yang banyak hilang...Drama kan? Yeah...my mom punyalah takut... because yelah, usually hilang darah masa beranak boleh menyebabkan.....kematian. Ish! But Alhamdulillah... berkat doa semua orang, berkat sokongan semua orang yang sanggup tunggu I dari 2am-10pm....I dimasukkan ke ward biasa after demam I dah ok semua. Bila I sedar jer...I terus minta my baby. Semua said baby tak boleh jumpa lagi...I was soo emo...I merajuk...because I risau. I actually takut anything happen to Baby Rae. So, hari ke-2 baru I dapat jumpa my baby... bayangkanlah... memang I terus sebak happy semua! Husband sentiasa ada di sisi I pujuk I ambil hati I happykan I...Ok,ok enough of sad story. Yang penting, now me and baby dah selamat...I dah tak takut pegang Baby Rae...I cuma perlu extra careful because kepala her masih sakit lagi kan....I sentiasa cuba breastfeed her...It was like, breastfeeding her with empty boobies! Susu takde...I didn't produced a lot of milk yet for Baby Rae...kesian my baby, she had to drink suppliment milk dulu. As I want to breastfeed exclusively sangat to her, I wasn't happy with the suppliment...I sentiasa berdoa and usaha urut my boobs semua supaya can produce milk for my baby...I'm the luckiest mommy on earth!